everyday…
…is a challenge, wherever that be walking out the front door with a smile of your face, or taking and passing your driving test, or just doing the washing up.
I guess this post might rabble a bit, so you have been warned!
I’m not going to moan about having two boys with Aspergers, and all the concerns that go with that, or any of the medical issues that seem to constantly surround one or more of my family members, but just living.
I guess this was prompted by reading Alis post a few days ago, and then seeing this photo last night just makes me wonder how we all get on, and everything just seems to happen.
Do I believe in fate, or do we have a hand in our future? I don’t know the answer, I guess I have to come down on the side of fate, because we, as a family, have had poo fall on us from a great height repeatably and I can’t believe all of it is by our own hand. But am I kidding myself, am I just trying to make myself feel better?
I have a bit of a cold, again, and yesterday I started to cut the fabric for the knitting bags I’m going to be making, and through my fuzzy head I cut at least 3 pieces wrong, I hope today I won’t muck it up anymore : (
Today we are visiting another secondary school for Edward, and that is all screwed up in my head, I don’t want it to be, but it is, it is like being on a massive sew-saw, with somebody jumping up and down on the other end, one moment, woooooooo everything looks so great, and then the next second your arse in on the floor, and everything looks grimy and problematic, but we have to see them all before we decide. We see the two special needs schools at the start of November, so I have to play the waiting game, and then evaluate everything all over again.
Sorry I said I wasn’t going to talk about the boys, but it sort of slipped out!
15th October 2008 @ 12:42 pm
I’m sorry to hear you sounding so defeated just now but I’m sure there is light at the end of the tunnel. I can’t imagine how much more complicated your life must be with the Aspergers to deal with as well as the children but I’m sure when the decisions are finally made, you will feel happier and many of the worries will evaporate. Just trust in your judgement – you know what is best for the boys and are certainly far better qualified than any of the schools to know what is best. Good luck and big hugs.
15th October 2008 @ 2:53 pm
Like Lucy said, you know what’s best for your children. Keep your head up and your heart open and everything will work out. I hope the meeting goes well. Hugs from afar!
15th October 2008 @ 4:01 pm
I’m sending strength and serenity your way through the internet (can you feel it?).
Take care.
15th October 2008 @ 10:19 pm
I completely understand. I’m having a day like this too. Just posted about it on my blog actually, before even checking anyone elses blog’s this morning…
This aspie thing is driving me slowly but ever so surely mental!
I’m trying to find joy in the ride!
15th October 2008 @ 10:37 pm
Life eh? Never a dull moment.